Thursday, November 09, 2006

We have swimmers!

That's right folks...Mr. Clinger is as healthy as a lark and so are his "little soldiers". So... it is all me, the reason we haven't conceived is all me.
That is very bitter sweet to me.
On one hand, I am SO grateful that we are not battling infertility from his side as well, but at the same time, I think it would help him understand my feelings and where I am coming from a little better, and maybe I wouldn't feel so alone.
Knowing that I am not able to give my husband a son/daughter naturally is a devastating feeling! I feel like a failure as a wife and ...well... as a woman.
If you are failing at something you were born into...what does that make you?
I don't just sucks that this is happening to us and there is no way around it.

More and more of my friends are having babies, and all I can do is put on a smile and try to muster through yet another baby shower.


It's been a rough week. - Just the kind of week that calls for a hot bubble bath, glass of wine and some smooth jazz...yep...that is what I am going to do with my evening!