Tuesday, April 19, 2011


Thank each and every one of you that posted loving comments, emailed and sent text messages to me. Your love and encouragement is appreciated so much!

Unfortunately, I don't have a good update. I just wasn't feeling right the last couple of days so I took a HPT yesterday - it was negative. I called my RE and had another beta drawn yesterday. Beta was 20. So we are losing yet another pregnancy. My body has failed again.

I am completely numb right now, not sure how else to describe how I am feeling. We have a consult with our RE tomorrow and we will be having an RPL (Recurrent Pregnancy Loss) panel done and we will go from there.

Thank you again for your love, support and your beautiful comments! You are a great bunch!

Thursday, April 14, 2011


I am amazed at the wonderful people (yes...I mean you) that infertility has brought into my life.

You all are the most amazing cheerleaders and I am forever grateful to you! Here are the answers to some of your questions...

1. Are you going to have more betas done before your u/s? I have gotten this question a LOT! I haven't really talked it over with my husband yet, but here is what I think. Today, I am pregnant. I have done all I can do to get pregnant/stay pregnant. Everything else from this day forward is out of my hands. I just kind of want to TRY to enjoy that I am pregnant today, and not worry myself with more numbers, tests etc. If I DID get a 3rd beta, and the numbers weren't what I was hoping for, then the wait for my u/s would be agonizing! I am not sure I could do that. So I guess in some circumstances, ignorance is bliss. I am just going to leave it up to God, because I have no control at this point, only he does.

2. When is your EDD? Our due date based on the day of ovulation is December 20th, this was just looked up on the computer, not given to us by our doctor.

3. There have been questions about which days I tested and got BFP.

11DPO - Negative
12 DPO - VERY faint positive - I mean VERY faint!
13 DPO - Faint line, but definitely a second line BETA 34
14 DPO - Second line darker
15 DPO - Did not POAS but BETA 74

Hope that helps!

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. I am truly blessed by "knowing" each and every one of you. If there has been anything good to come from this hellish 6 year long journey, it is my strengthened relationship with the Lord, and you all!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Second Beta Results

It has been a VERY long 2 days, but here we are.

Beta 1: 34
Beta 2: 74

They doubled in 42 hours! So...until proven otherwise, we have a viable pregnany folks. We have our first u/s at 6 1/2 weeks on April 29th God willing.

I am in shock and really just don't know how to feel. I keep picturing myself at Christmas time with a little baby in my arms, but it just doesn't feel real yet. I just can't go there yet.

I feel blessed beyond belief, and can only rely on Him to get me through this. I know that this is completely out of my hands, and in His.

We have cleared one hurdle...but have many more to clear ahead!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Third time is a charm...

Hi, My name is Nichole and I am a POASaholic (you all chime in here with a "Hi Nichole") Here is how my POAS addiction has served me the last couple of days.

Saturday - BFN
Sunday - SOOOO faint 2nd line I am still not even sure it was there or not.
Monday - Definite 2nd line, much fainter than the control line, but it was there
Tuesday - Even DARKER 2nd line!

So...here we are - our 3rd BFP in over 6 years. Obviously the first 2 didn't end up so well, so we are hoping the third time is the charm.

I did go to the RE for my first Beta and P4 (progesterone) check yesterday
HcG: 34
P4: 53.6 (which is HUGE since my last pregnancy it was 7.2 at 61/2 weeks!)

The beta was actually done a day early on 13DPO, so the RE was not surprised that the HcG was that low and was actually pleased with the number. The second line on my pg test this morning was considerably darker than yesterday, so I am thinking that is a good sign of the HcG rising.
I will do a repeat Beta and P4 check tomorrow.

PLEASE say prayers for us and our little one. We are trying to just enjoy one day at a time and not get caught up in the "what ifs" We know that the Lord has a plan for us, a plan for our baby and we just hope that this time...it is our will to get to bring this baby home, happy and healthy in December.