Insurance companies SUCK!!!

I get a letter last night from our insurance company, enclosed is a form titled "Pre-existing condition investigation. I get on Cigna's website this morning to find out what is going on and they haven't even paid for my appointment with the Reproductive Endocronologist yet. They have a note by it stating that a "pre-existing condition" investigation is being performed and that pre-existing conditions are not covered by our policy.
First of all, I don't even have a DIAGNOSIS yet...I am still in the testing phase, so how can something be "pre-existing" if I don't even know what it is?
Have I seen other Dr.'s for this...yes
Have I been "treated" for it? Well if you call the dr. prescribing me a drug and telling me "take that for about a month and then come back and see me and we will see if it makes a difference" treatment, then I suppose yes, but the medication made me so sick, I couldn't even take it for the full month.
So...getting treated for this condition now to reduce my chances of cervical cancer (which I am at a 60% higher risk than "normal" women) and increase my chances of having children of my own in the future is NOT covered. BUT...If I get cervical cancer as a result of not ovulating and having periods...THAT will be covered????
DOES THIS MAKE ANY F*&!ING SENSE TO ANYONE????
I hate insurance companies, I hate them, I hate them, I hate them.
"Oh, Mr. Jones, you can't have an erection? Well we will prescribe some Viagra for you so you can have a normal life. Don't worry, your insurance will cover all of your costs"
"Oh, Mrs. Clinger, your screwed. come back and see us when you have cancer so your insurance will cover it. Sorry about that whole - not having a family of your own thing - Have a nice day"
Can't I just get an F'ing break here? What have I done to deserve this? Why can every inbred crack head have a family, and I can't. This is so unfair
I hate hate hate my body

We are going to quit smoking!

It is official, I picked up our prescriptions for Wellbutrin yesterday so...within the next month, Pace and I will be smoke free.
I am very excited, I can't believe how much money we are going to save, as well as being able to breathe better, taste food better, smell better, just feel better overall!!
Prayers would be greatly appreciated as I know this is going to be a trying time for both Pace and I. I have tried to quit before, but have not been successful, so hopefully this will be it for us.
Damn cigarettes anyway...if I could only go back to age 16 when I had my first cigarette I would. I would have thrown it down on the ground and spit on it. It is a nasty disgusting, unhealthy addiction that I would not wish on anyone.
I just hope I feel the same way in 2 months!
Wish us luck!

First RE appt. down...many more to go

I had my first Reproductive Endocronology appt. today and I think it went really well. I love my new Dr. he explained things to Pace and I very well and answered all of our questions. He did a vaginal u/s and said that my ovaries and uterus look great and that he would like to run some more tests to help him identify exactly what it is that we are working with.
He seemed very positive and told me that it is not a question of if...but when we get pg which was a huge relief. Pace will go in for a SA to rule out any MF and I will go in for an HSG test to determine if I have any blockage of the falopian tubes. The only problem is that neither of these are covered by insurance so I am going to have to pay for those out of pocket which is going to be like $600. Let the money spending begin!!!
I have to do some additional blood work and other tests and then we will be ready to finish up the diagnosis stage and move on to the treatment stage. For once I actually have a little bit of hope that someday soon I will be able to carry Pace's child. I can't tell you how excited that makes me.
Thank you all for being understanding and keeping up with this maize Pace and I are in. We would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers that the upcoming tests are "good news"
Nichole