I was doing SO good this month! I REALLY hadn't thought about being (or not being) pg that much. I wasn't sad, I wasn't angry and bitter, I didn't do ANY ovulation prediction tests, and I haven't taken 1 pg test...I was really making progress.
And then...
I broke...
It kind of started with my FIL's comment last night, but then just a few minutes ago, I crumbled. I just found out that Pace's ex is pg with her 2nd. It's kind of a strange situation, but Pace and his brother were dating sisters, his brother has 2 daughters (our nieces) with one of them and the one that Pace dated is now married and a mom. I instantly felt SO angry and bitter. I like his ex. She is a very sweet girl and trust me it is nothing personal between me and her. However this huge flood of emotion came over me and I couldn't help but think "If Pace had stayed with her, he would be a daddy right now. He would have someone to carry on his name and he would be able to be the father he has always wanted to be."
Mass hysteria and utter chaos is going on in my mind right now and I just had to write this down because I am at work right now and if I didn't get it out somehow, I would end up a sobbing mess here at my desk and my boss would look at me like I am a freak (again).
1 comment:
Awww hon :( I do know what you mean because I have had similar thoughts about my husbands ex-partners. Stay strong xx
Post a Comment