Wednesday, August 17, 2011

And again...

I don't have a good update from my ultrasound yesterday, unfortunately. The baby showed no growth. It was still measuring 5 weeks, 5 days and I am technically 7 weeks 5 days. The heartrate had dropped to only 68 bpm which is not good. They are taking me off all of my meds at this point and I go back on Friday to make sure I am miscarrying on my own.

I am so beyond hurt, angry, confused and devastated. I have no idea where we go from here. It appears that my dream to have my husbands child is forever gone.


18 comments:

Dana said...

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! NOOOOOOO!!!! Nichole I am so sorry! My heart aches for you!! I pray for you to find peace amongst all your suffering! I love you!!!!!!!!

Glass Case of Emotion said...

I am so sorry. So you are in my thoughts.

Jill said...

Oh Nichole, I am so so sorry. I was thinking about you yesterday and hoping for better results. There are just no words to offer for all you have been through. I can only offer my sympathy to you and your husband.

E and R said...

I am so very sorry to read this. Thinking of you.

Melissa said...

I am so sorry to hear this. As hard as it is trust that God has a bigger plan that you can see right now and lean on him for understanding and peace. I am so sorry for your loss.

keeksaz said...

I'm so sorry.

Elana said...

I am so very sorry Nichole. It's just not fair. :-(

Amanda said...

I'm so sorry. I was hoping this was the one. :(

stink-bomb said...

oh Nichole. i clicked over hoping for good news and it ticks me off that you've been shortchanged, yet again. it truly is not fair and i was hoping that this little bubba was the one to make it into your arms.

sending you bucketloads of love and strength to get through this.

xxxxxxxxx

"His Perfect Timing" said...

I am so very, very sorry to read this. I will keep you in my prayers. You have my deepest sympathy.

Bec said...

Oh my goodness honey :( I am so terribly sorry you are going through - so much joy and then pain in such a short period of time.

Love you and hope you are coping okay xxx

invitroveritas said...

I'm so sorry to hear. That is terrible news. Thinking of you.

invitroveritas said...

I'm so sorry to hear. That is terrible news. Thinking of you.

Cori said...

Noooooo!!! I am so sad to hear this news. It just plain sucks. I will be praying for you.

Lauren said...

I know I already told you this, but I wanted to say again how sorry I am. These ups and downs just aren't fair. I hope you've been doing OK over these past few days.....

embracingtherain said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Stopping by from LFCA.

Trish said...

Nicole, I'm so, so, so sorry. I wish I knew why this was happening to you guys again. :(

missohkay said...

I'm here from LFCA and so sorry for this loss and your others. I know it hurts so much. Hoping for peace and healing going forward.