Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Long update

I'm sorry it has been so long since I have written. I'm not sure why I haven't written - just haven't really been motivated I guess. So I have a lot to blog about.
I got my tattoo and I love it! I am so glad I finally did it! The pictures are a little rough because of the flash, but here is a basic idea.
Here is one literally seconds after he finished:

And here is one Pace took today - it is all healed up. Keep in mind I did adjust the color to try and get the shine to go away but it is kind of blurry and there is quite a bit of shine still.

The pictures really don't do it justice, I will try to get a better picture soon.

Last weekend Pace and I took his little sister (she's 3) to a cabin up North with our friends and their 2 year old son. It was awesome! We played in the snow, we went sledding, we played pool, we played Mad Gab and just had an awesome time. The weather was beautiful and I can't wait to go back again!

On the "Still TTC Front"

Last Thursday the cramps started. I tested Friday morning at 14DPO *negative*. I was ok, after all that just meant that I could have some drinks on our weekend away and I didn't really have a lot of hope anyway since I ovulated so late. The cramps were fairly intense over the entire weekend, but AF never showed. This is really weird for me because usually literally minutes after the cramps start, AF shows her ugly face. Not this time though. I wasn't going to complain though - that was one less thing I had to worry about over the weekend.

*TMI ahead warning READ AT YOUR OWN RISK*

Sunday night Pace and I did a little BDing *wink wink* that is when I fell apart. Immediately after I got the WORSE cramps! The kind of cramps that make you HATE being a woman. The kind of cramps that no woman, no matter how spiteful she may be would EVER wish upon her worse enemy! They hit me like a freight train. They were so bad I was curled up in a ball on the bathroom floor crying hysterically. Poor Pace he felt totally helpless. The cramps got so intense I actually started throwing up.

I have had cramps like this before, not in a long time, but I had them before but I was so mad this time cause I thought that the surgery would make my periods better...not worse. The vomiting eventually turned into dry heaving and after about 20 minutes the cramps subsided. I went to bed, got up and went to work yesterday - nothing. No AF.

All that cramping for nothing. This was really starting to freak me out. I had some typical cramping last night, but nothing major, went to bed, got up and went to work this morning - again...nothing.

Then after being at work for an hour. The horrible-God-please-take-me-now cramps returned. I ended up balled up on the bathroom floor dry heaving at WORK! There she was in all of her Glory - AF. Finally you stupid wench, what did I do to piss you off SO much that you would put me through all of this?

I toughed it out for about another hour until I just couldn't take it any longer. The pain was so bad I couldn't concentrate on anything else. I told my boss I needed to go home and bawled all the way home. Those cramps stuck with me for about 3 and a half hours and have been off and on all day since then.

I hear you asking - Nichole why didn't you take anything? I did...I have taken Mi.dol, Al.eve, Ty.lenol you name it, I have taken it and have taken more than the recommended amount.

So here I sit...CD1. This Thursday marks 4 years. Four years of being married to the most wonderful husband I could have ever asked for and 4 years of trying to start our family. Very bitter sweet.

So that is the update in a nutshell on me. I thought you all would think this is cute: Pace's little sister saw my tattoo while we were camping this weekend and she said "I like your stamp" I said "Thank you - do you know who it is?" She replied, "Yep...it's baby Jesus...he's sleeping"



Elana Kahn said...

I'm so sorry about AF and all of those awful cramps. Just be careful with the meds...regular midol has tylenol in it, so don't take them together (like in the same day) and midol "cramps and body aches" has advil in it, so don't take them together either. It's just not worth it to overdose on this stuff because it will make you feel much, much worse. Anyway, if the cramps are that bad, I would ask your doc for a narcotic to take instead of over the counter meds (because that doesn't seem to work). Good luck!

Angelwingsbaby said...

Very cute comment his sister made about your tattoo. I too have experienced cramps for no reason due to my endo. I had the worst ones of my life and ended up in the urgent care center at the hospital trying to figure out what was wrong since I couldn't get off the floor crying. My cramps had started with my period and then just never stopped for about a week after AF was already gone. I mean they were horrible and I could only crawl on the floor and cry.I won't get in to the horrible inadequate care I received.But none the less it took me two visits to get them to finally give me a shot to make me more comfortable. They always seem to think endo people are crazy and making it up.I had asked right off the bat for a certain pain shot that I knew would help but they said only junkies ask for that.And then gave me something else the first visit,which after 2 hours waiting for it to help it didn't.That's that's funny, I told them that it wouldn't help because I had had it too before and it didn't.The only reason I asked for the first shot is because I knew it would work since I had it before.And when they did give me my first requested med, go figure I had pretty much no pain and could sleep for the first time in almost 2 weeks.

Misty said...

I love your "baby Jesus sleeping" stamp. It's great and that was such a cute comment!

Cramps suck and they suck worse when it means that it's another failed month. I'm so sorry, this whole process sucks!

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

tattoo looks great. and aww to the baby jesus comment. how sweet.

those cramps sound horrifying. i hope it was a one time thing!

Bec said...

Oh honey.
Firstly your tattoo is gorgeous! It's meaningful and tasteful and just perfect.
THose cramps sound like a b*tch, I hope you are feeling a bit better now.

Happy Anniversary for your wedding anniversary as well. I know it is bitter-sweet being the anniversary of starting TTC, it must hurt like hell. Just know that we are thinking of you, and how much you love each other at this time.


Dana said...

AF is so rude and mean. I am so sorry that you are not feeling well at all. I know what you mean about taking all those meds...and nothing works. It sucks!! I LOVE the tatoo and it is BEAUTIFUL!! I am praying for you Nichole and I am sending you some love and hugs!!

Fertilized said...

I am so sorry about the AF and the years of TTC. I do love that tattoo though!

Hope said...

Nice to see your post! I really like your tattoo! It must feel nice to have the baby there with you all the time. Very sorry to hear about the punishing cramps and delayed period. I'm speechless about the 4 years and admire your strength and glad you are going out and having fun with friends.

Jess said...

I don't know if I told you yet, but I love your tattoo! I am so glad you got it and it fits baby becker perfectly!