Ladies (and Gents...) I can't believe where my life is now compared to where it was in January of this year. In January we were so on board and motivated to move forward with adoption (not that we aren't now...but we just can't now). I was still working, Pace was working at his previous company, life was pretty good...
Now, life is even better...
We are being blessed in so many ways, I just can't tell you. Now we are continuing to try on our own and hope something happens there, I am no longer working although the opportunity to work from home is starting to come together (Yipeeeee!) Pace has started a new job which requires him to work nights. Yes...being alone at night stinks...but it was so awesome to spend the day with my husband today. We ran some errands, did chores around the house and as we were walking into Home Depot holding hands I asked myself "could life be any better right now?"
Of course the pain and bitterness is still there...every day. However, I am really enjoying where we are now. My body is somewhat doing what it is supposed to and we have agreed that if there is no ovulation this month, we will do Fem.ara again.
We are packing up our spare bedroom next month (we have another bedroom for guests) and taking all of the furniture back to my parents in KS...that's right...we are moving the furniture out to make room for our future nursery. Well for now, it will be a play room for Pace's little sister and a room for the dog kennels, (yes...our dogs are in there kennels ocassionally when we are gone from the house for a while..they actualyl like it in there *yes they told me so*...don't judge) but at least there is some progress and hope that we both believe that SOMEDAY there will be a baby in there whether biological or not...we will be parents and right now...today...in this very moment...I am ok with that.
However, I make no promises for tomorrow! :-)
8 comments:
Days like that are the best! The ones where you are happy where you are in life, and grateful for all of the things you have, instead of bitter about what you don't have. I'm glad you are having one of the good days! Here's to many more!
Our Sadie loves her kennel too! Glad to hear you're feeling good! :)
Judge? I'm envious. I wish my dogs would love their kennels my life would be so much easier. Othello has set in there and barked for hours and hours before. I worked with him for months before I just gave up.
ICLW
Despite life's pitfalls, we are the lucky ones. I'm glad everything is working out for you -- and it will, you'll see!
My dog goes in her kennel and relaxes all the time.
ICLW
It's refreshing to see such a positive post! I'm glad you are feeling good and that you had a good day.
ICLW
Love that you're in such a good place right now. Very lovely to read:-) But of course, we will love to read the down times too. For now, though, I'm thankful you are in a positive mood. (((hugs)))
I think it is great that you have such a positive attitude (for today-at least). And for looking on the bright side of your husband working nights (getting more stuff done!).
ICLW #81
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