Tuesday, September 28, 2010

On to another cycle

We are finally ready to start again...today is CD2. I will start Femara tomorrow and see where the roller coaster ride of this month will take us.

I have been a complete emotional wreck for the last week. Saturday morning Pace and I took my niece to breakfast for her 16th birthday. When we went to pay, I realized that Pace had left the coupon on the table and when I went back to get it, the table had already been cleared...I literally had to fight back the tears...seriously? It was only a $5 off coupon!

It just went downhill from there.

Spent most of the day yesterday crying...for no definitive reason...just needed to cry I guess.

I have had a lot of pressure on my plate with work, DH is discussing some major career changes that are totally freaking me out, we have 3 trips coming up in the next 3 months and have no idea how we are going to pay for them, my BIL and his GF are going to be staying with us for a while until they find a place to live here and there are no set plans for that yet (i.e. are their two dogs coming with them as well? How long do they plan on staying etc.) I am very excited for them to move here, but I just need some of these questions answered, my niece is struggling health-wise and it is so hard to live so far away from them.

I guess this has all just come crashing down on me all at one time and I finally lost it.

I am feeling a little better today, am going to take the morning off to run some errands and get some things done around the house.


Kakunaa said...

Mmm, we are the house where everyone goes, too, hon, and it can be very difficult. Hang in there and good luck with the Femara!!!

~stinkb0mb~ said...

Oh honey I'm so sorry :-(

It never rains it pours eh and there are times when it just seems to be one thing after another and sometimes you just have to cry - even if it is for no reason.

Re your BIL and his GF, I'd be setting down a time frame for them to leave before they move in - otherwise they could overstay their welcome.

Big hugs and I hope things start to look up for you soon!


Kir said...

Oh my sweet girl! Oh sweetie...hang in there, sometimes when the whole world is falling apart is when things are really coming together.
You know, the darkness before the dawn..stupid cliche, but wise words.

I remember those days, of crying and feeling sooooooo out of control of my own destiny ( Um, I still have them) but if you hang in there and trust that God is holding you in his HAND right now, you'll get through this.

thinking of you and loving you through all of it. GOOD LUCK....

Cori said...

Hang in there! Wishing you tons of luck this cycle and hoping you are feeling a bit better:)