Saturday, February 10, 2007

On to #2

Apparently my ovaries just weren't up to working this month.
At Friday's appointment, I had only one follicle (for those of you who don't know what a follicle is, it is the thing that develops on your ovary that eventually an egg will grow in and mature ready for conception) Anyway...that one follicle was only 11 mm. So...the count decreased and the size increased barely. 11mm is a far cry from the 18 or 20mm that it needs to be at.

I was angry, I am angry, I am confused, I don't understand and I am utterly devastated. But...I am ok. I am going through my daily motions, living my life and suprisingly enough, I am ok. Mr. Clinger has been wonderful! He holds me when I need to be held, let's me cry when I need to cry and makes me laugh when I need to laugh. I have no idea where I would be in this journey without him!

So we are moving on to the next cycle. We will be doing more aggressive treatments this time. I don't know when the next cycle will start, and that is ok with me right now. I am looking forward to enjoying Valentine's Day and our wedding (and TTC) anniversary with my husband without having to worry about meds, Dr. appts., what I eat, what I drink, etc. I am looking forward to the break. '

Don't get me wrong, I wish we didn't have to move onto another cycle, but a break is welcome right now.

It has truly been a blessing, all of those who have and continue to support Mr. Clinger and I through this journey. We are truly blessed by our friends and family. People we expected support and love from failed us, and those that we never even expected have totally suprised us and have gone above and beyond the support and love we expected. It has definately been an eye opening experience.

So, I may not write for a while, it will at least be two weeks until we can think of starting another cycle.


Melissa said...

Nichole - I'm sorry your cycle got cancelled. That happened to me this month, too, when my body didn't respond to the Clomid. It really sucks. Enjoy your break. Look forward to hearing from you when you get back!

Ellen K. said...

I'm so sorry, Nichole. : (