I am back from Kansas and I had a WONDERFUL time! This was the most enjoyable trip back home that I can remember. It was great seeing all of my brothers and sisters and my nieces and nephews. I just had a ball.
I was able to sit back and enjoy the slower pace of life. The country life. I miss it so much. I don't know if I would ever want to move back there, but I definately want to move to the outskirts. Out of the hussle and bustle. Somewhere where I can walk out my back door and not stare at a brick wall and the top of my neighbors house. I want to move to a place where people don't hide behind the fences in their backyard and where they actually know their neighbors.
So many things happened on this trip, it is hard to include it all in one blog entry. We flew into Denver, CO and then drove 6 hours to my parents farm. Driving through the country brought back so many memories from my childhood. I had no idea how much I missed that part of the country until I got there. People say hi to you when you walk past them. They say excuse me when they bump into you. They wave at you when they drive past you (and not the middle finger wave either) It is just a completely different way of life there.
The farm that my parents live on has been in my family for 3 generations now. My grandparents built it and raised each of their kids in it. My dad is the youngest, so when he got old enough, he bought the house from my grandparents and raised all 6 of us in it. And it is still there, it will always be home, no matter what. I took some pics that I will post when I have time to actually download my camera.
Being around my sisters and all of my nieces and nephews relit that "must have a baby" flame in me. It made me a little sad actually to hear my sister say "well when I am done having kids I...." I so wish I could just plan to have a kid and then bam! Have a kid. What it would be like to be able to know exactly how far apart your kids will be in age and be able to plan your life around when you want to have kids.
I am not as bitter about it now though, which is nice. I think I have found a little bit of peace as I research all of our options and try to figure out what the heck we are going to do.
We are researching IVF in Europe, Africa and the U.S. We are also looking into adoption. I am waiting for a call back from our Dr. to let me know when the next IVF orientation is. I just feel like I need to be doing something, cause doing nothing is just wasting time. Valuable time that we just don't have.
I will try to write more this weekend and also post some pics from our trip!