Monday, January 12, 2009

Starting To Freak

My lab work is done, I have given my medical history and I 32 hours away from my surgery. I know that it is a minor, routine surgery, but I am still freaking a little. I am freaking about being put under, about doing/saying something stupid while under anesthesia, about what they will find. I am just a freak.

I have had a rough couple of days. My great Aunt passed away. I was supposed to sing at her funeral, but the funeral is tomorrow...in KS. No way I could go and be back for my surgery. So my sister flew home and is going to be singing with my mom. I am sad that I can't be there, but I need to do this and I can't put it off.

A very dear family friend of Pace's passed away this weekend. The poor man had been battling cancer for a few years now. It was awful what he had to go through and I am so thankful his pain is over.

I had a fantastic weekend with my husband. We played Playstation 3, we wrestled, tickled, laughed, watched lots of football and just enjoyed each other. I love it when we enjoy each other like that.

Here are a few pics from our New Years trip. I will update you all on my surgery as quickly as I can.

12 comments:

Dreamer4agift said...

I have been watching the days go by thinking of you being close to surgery. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am sorry to hear about your Aunt and Pace's friend...death is hard, no matter when it happens. May God give you the strength you need. ((hugs))

Angelwingsbaby said...

Remember that I am here for you.The lap and hysterscopy are not too bad but will take you down for a bit.I have had 4 in total and I still never get used to them.Just baby yourself and rest as much as possible.((Hugs))-Megan

Nikki said...

Good luck for your surgery Nichole. I hope all goes smoothly and your recovery is smooth as well.

I'm sorry about your Grand Aunt, and Pace's family friend.

Anonymous said...

Don't you just look adorable in your pink helmet!! :)

I will send prayers your way that your surgery goes as planned with no problems.

Crystal

Hope said...

I am sorry to hear about your Aunt passing away and I also wanted to wish you good luck with your surgery. I'm hoping it goes smooth and the results help in the TTC department!

I Believe in Miracles said...

Love the pictures! Good luck with the surgery. Let us know. We're rooting for you.

Dave and Elaine said...

I had lap surgery on Nov 6 and like you was freaking out before the surgery...but I found out the surgery itself was the easy part!! I don't remember a thing once they gave me the good stuff!
Recovery is what was so bad for me - and really looking back it was ALL WORTH IT because I had endo and now it is gone!!!
The air pain was the worst after surgery. Use heating pads where it hurts (my shoulders really hurt from the air pain) but the heating pad became my best friend.
Eager to hear how it went! Praying for you today.

Melissa said...

you'll do great - i read your blog and other infertility blogs often... i am so glad i found them as i thought i was the only one going through all these things!...
actually just had the hysteroscopy/lap this past friday. hardest part now is just moving from the incisions!

you are in my thoughts and prayers for a good surgery and recovery!

Erin said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the losses. That's a heartbreak, whether the loved one is old, young, sick, healthy.

Surgery can be scary, but I know you will be fine, I am praying, praying, praying.

Try to enjoy the anesthesia! Looking forward to an update.

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

good luck with the surgery!!! youll be fine! relax this weekend and know this is one step closer to being a mommy!

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

ps-what a beautiful sunset!

Darya said...

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. ((((HUGS)))

I hope the worst is over for you after today.