Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Getting back into the groove

Well my friends....it is that time again. It is 2010, and it is time to get back on the TTC boat. I can't believe how fast the last couple of months has gone, and to be honest, it has been REALLY nice not having to worry about what CD I was on, taking OPT's, going to Dr. appts, taking medicine...it has been very nice.

Although we have not officially had "The Talk" to figure out what our next steps are...we are in the boat again and will likely have "The Talk" this weekend. I am nervous, excited and dreading it all at the same time.

I was really hoping that all of those people who have told me to "relax...and it will happen" were right and I would magically get pg on our break...hmmmm guess they were wrong. Didn't see that one coming. Ha!

Oh wait...I guess it will happen if/when we decide to adopt...yeah that's right, well....that's what the all say isn't it?

(Please know that is SATURATED with sarcasm)!!!!

My friends baby shower is less than 2 weeks away, the anxiety is starting to mount and I am hoping I can just push through with very little discomfort. At this point there are over 50 women on the guest list and only 4 have RSVP'd...Oh I hope people begin to RSVP...It is one of my biggest pet peeves when people don't!

Please Lord allow me strength, perseverance and faith during this TTC season. Please help me remember that you are in control. Please help me watch my words and keep my emotions in check. Please allow me to remember that jealousy and anger will only make things worse, and only having faith in you will make things better. I know that you have a plan for us Lord, I just ask that you steer us and guide us...quickly...it has been a long season Lord and after almost 5 years, I am very weary...Amen


Emily said...

I'll be praying for you during that baby shower. I can't even begin to imagine how that would feel. I have avoided all pregnant friends like the plague. Call me selfish, but I am just not putting myself through it!

Anonymous said...

Ello gorgeous, I'm praying that you get your miracle bundle of joy this year, I truly am.


addingtothepack said...

I hope that the conversation this weekend goes well and I hope that everything comes together for the baby shower.

♥ ♥ Just a Girl in Love w/ a Soldier ♥ ♥ said...

I will pray your prayer for you tonight and hopes that somthing will come from it. Hope the RSVP's start coming in for the shower :). You are such a strong woman I know you can get through it.