Tuesday, September 30, 2008


AF finally came today. Praise God I can put this cycle behind me and move forward. So...in four days I will start Clomid again and see what happens.

I am scared. I am anxious. I am excited. I am grouchy. I am terrified.

I don't know if my heart can handle much more. But at least I can move forward.

Oh...and I am gaining weight again. Last Oct. I started taking Met.Formin and lost 35 pounds. Since my miscarriage I have gained 8 back. WTF??? I haven't done anything different...but I am packing the pounds on again. I HATE THIS!


I Believe in Miracles said...


I don't think I've ever been so happy to read that AF is here.

I hear you on the scared, anxious, excited, grouchy and terrified. With you there sister!

Thanks for the encouragement this morning. I really needed to hear that. Means a lot to me.

No clue about the weight gain. I feel like I fluctuate a lot. Meds can do weird things to our bodies.


Nikki said...

Yay on AF showing up!

Good luck with this cycle Nichole. I will keep my fingers crossed for you!

About the weight gain - I have also put on weight, and I hate it too! I know how you're feeling on that.

But let's hope this cycle works, and you then put on say 30-40 lbs!! We wouldn't mind that weight one bit I know!!!

Anonymous said...

Hey love,

As you know, I gained weight too during my miscarriages. I freaking gained about 20-25 pounds after each one. I don't know if its from the depression or what but like you I never ate anymore than I usually did. My doctor says we think we aren't eating more but when depressed we tend to over eat and not think about it, lol! Another doctor said our metabolism/body goes out of whack after our body is shocked from losing the baby!

I finally have started to lose weight and its because Greg and I go on nightly walks (my opinion). If you ever want to go on walks with us (bring Pace) or me and you, we can do that! Greg usually bails out on me, and I go alone, lol!

Darya said...

I am glad you got AF and please keep her away from me!!

I'm sorry you have gained weight after such an awful loss. IF is so not fair. :-(

I will be praying for this to be your cycle!