Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Totally out of it

So... I have been a bad blogger and an even worse commenter. To be honest...life really sucks right now.

The company I have worked at for almost 9 years is folding. It is only a matter of time (like within a few months). They have laid off nearly half of the employees today, more to come this week and the rest of us are just waiting around to show up to work to find locked doors. It is awful. My dear sweet friend who just had surgery last week due to breast cancer is quite possibly going to be one of the employees to be laid off this week. I am just absolutely sick to my stomach. I can't imagine working without her. She was hired as my assistant to help with the daily office responsibilities and there is NO WAY I can do it all without her. Her husband was laid off 6 months ago, hasn't been able to find any work, she was just diagnosed with breast cancer last month, and now this.

I am so stressed, sad and just overall disgusted at the poor decisions the owners have made over the last 2 years (new owners came in 2 years ago) that has brought the company to where they are now.

I am so excited to leave on Thursday and just get away from all of the stress and frustration even if it is only for 5 days. It will be 5 days of spending life in a much more relaxed, slow pace out on the farm with my parents. MUCH NEEDED!

TTC hasn't even been an option lately. I haven't been keeping track of what day I am on, haven't been taking OPT, haven't even given it a second thought (to my husbands pleasure).

I am so sorry I have been a bad blogger. So many things are going on right now, I just haven't had the time or the energy to get online.

That is all for now. I probably won't write again until I get home from my 10 year reunion. I hope you all have a wonderful and safe Labor Day and thank you for continuing to read my blog even though I don't update you all as often as I should!

Big Hugs!


♥ ♥ Just a Girl in Love w/ a Soldier ♥ ♥ said...

We all know you have a much more important life out side of your blog and reading ours so that is ok. Dont beat your self up about it. We do miss you but know that we are always here for you. (of course you know Gabe & I are), Im so sorry about your job and the way things are going right now. I cant imagen the added stess that puts on you and pace. I hope you have a WONDERFUL RELAXING time back home this next weekend. It will be nice for you and pace to get away from every thing and really have some time with your family. Love you Lots girl and cant wait to hear about your trip.

Nikki said...

Nichole - I'm so sorry about all the stress you're under! And I feel so bad for your friend! What a tough situation to be in! I hope she and her husband see better times soon.

Enjoy your trip to your parents' farm. Have a safe trip!

Hillary said...

Wow, that does sound horrible stressful and awful. I'm so sorry! I hope you have a great vacation despite the stress at work!!


The Unproductive One said...

You've been in my thoughts hon.

I'm sorry you're having such a shitty time, I hope the break will do you good.


Dana said...

Hey girl. So sorry to hear about your work..that is horrible. And no worries on the blog front we all know your heart and I hate it that it is bad stuff that is keeping you busy these days. I hope you have the BEST time on your trip and get some much needed rest. Love you!

Jess said...

Blah, if it isn't one thing, it is another! I hope it all works out and I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. She has enough to deal with already, poor thing. And don't stress about the blog, lol, it gives me an excuse to text you and say hi friend (lol, not that I need an excuse but you know what I mean!)

I hope you have a safe, fun, and relaxing trip! Love ya girlie!


addingtothepack said...

I'm sorry work sucks right now. I hope you enjoy a few days away from the stress.

Bec said...

Work sounds like total crap - I have everything works out okay for you and your friend.

Enjoy your time away, and dont worry about the blogging thing, its more important that you are living your life, and living well.

Thinking of you all the time xx

Cortney said...

Hey Nichole, it's Cortney from the RESLOVE meetings. I hope you have fun at your reunion! I also wanted you to know i'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care.

the misfit said...

I'm so sorry to hear the news about your work - that's awful! I will pray for your friend - what a scary situation :(. Do you know what you'll do next?

Jess said...

I miss you...I'm so glad you had a great time! I'm so blah right now Nichole! I want to just cry over being infertile! I hate this...I hate it all and I just want us to both be moms! I want to throw in the towel and say F**k it but I know that would just make me even more sad! I'm sorry this is such a lame comment but I jut needed to talk to you and see your face (your blog has a pic of you!) I wish we were still neighbors, I would come over with a ton of beer and wine coolers for me and get your drunk and then make you go on a long ass walk with me....hahaaha!


Jeremy and Emily said...

That really sucks! Are you looking for another job now? I hope things get less stressful for you.