My fellow bloggers, I need to apologize. I need to apologize to not only all of you, but especially my Ex-sister-in-law and myself as well.
My ex-SIL read my previous blog. I had no idea she read my blog in the first place, but that isn't the point. The point is, it was shallow and unfair of me to describe her in the way I did. I hurt her feelings, made her very upset and rightfully so. I love to write, this blog has given me the opportunity to vent my frustrations to people that "get it" and I cherish that. However, I never meant to hurt anyone and I deeply regret not having the ability to write my last post more eloquently.
Yes, this blog is a place for me to vent, but I did not create this blog to hurt others. I should have been more mindful about what I was writing, who was going to read it and how it was going to be interpreted.
I am not perfect. I am having a very rough time just making it by day to day right now, but that gives me no write to judge someone else. Just as my ex-SIL has never and will never walk in my shoes, I have never and will never walk in hers.
I don't think of myself as a judgemental person, I guess we all are to some degree, but typically I really try not to. The whole IF thing has really put a bitterness in my heart that I never experienced before.
I am thankful I wrote the last blog, I am even more thankful that my ex-SIL read it and called me out on it - and man did she call me out. She let me have it, but I upset her and she had every right to be angry. I am thankful for all of this because it convicted me. It showed me a side of me that I didn't really know I had and a side of me that I DEFINITELY need to work on.
imarriedmrewing - thank you for your comment. I appreciate your honesty, your story, your understanding and most of all the truth. I also appreciate the grace with which you wrote. You made it very clear to me where I had gone wrong without being hurtful.
I am a Christian, but I am even more of a sinner. I have a lot of work to do and this experience has definitely brought that to my attention front and center.
Ex-SIL - I am very sorry for hurting you and upsetting you. You were right - you have never done anything to me and I had no right to write what I wrote about you. You have pretty much raised your son alone with no help from anyone and that takes a strength and determination that not everyone has. I do wish you a very healthy pregnancy, I would never wish any pregnant woman harm. Not you or anyone else. Thank you for your honesty last night even though I feel it was a little harsh, but I thank you non-the-less.
I humbly ask for forgiveness from all of you.