Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Our Easter Sunday

I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for all of your supportive words over the last couple of days - not only regarding the SIL situation, but also for the tough day we were facing. A few of you expressed concern that I would begin censoring myself because of the situation with SIL and I can assure you I will not. What I will do however, is consider my words more carefully and make sure that what I am trying to say is what I am actually writing.

Pace and I went to church Saturday night instead of going on Sunday which was perfect. There were almost NO children there and it was just an amazing service.
Sunday morning we woke up, had breakfast and put on our hiking clothes. We filled up our camel packs, laced up our tennis shoes, threw on some sunscreen and away we went. The mountain we ended up hiking is actually like 15 minutes away from our house and the views were AMAZING! The desert is in bloom right now and I was able to get some amazing pictures while we were out there.
This is the first time Pace and I have been hiking together, so we weren't sure where the trail we were on was going to take us. We knew it would eventually take us to the top, but we had no idea how we would get to the top, or how long it would take...but we followed. Kind of like the trail of infertility we are on - we know that eventually we will be "resolved" however we have no idea how we are going to get resolved or how long it will take, we just have to keep walking.
We received a wonderful gift from Sarah's Laughter a few months ago. It is a butterfly bag for those mourning the loss of a child. Inside this bag there were 3 white balloons and a packet of Forget-Me-Not flower seeds. We divided the seeds up between the three balloons and had them filled with helium before our hike.

Here is Pace and I at the beginning of our hike

The first picture I took while I was on our hike was of this amazing saguaro cactus. These are everywhere in Southern AZ, but this one in particular caught my eye. The view looking up into the clouds was just amazing.

Who would have thought that these prickly buggers could produce such pretty flowers?

This will be our final destination - this was taken right before the hike got kind of steep.

Pace getting ready to release the balloons from the top of our hike.

Floating towards the heavens - I love you Baby Becker - I miss you dearly and wish so badly I could have had you in my arms for Easter. Mommy and Daddy love you so much and will never forget you - you will always be our first love!

The view on the way back down the mountain
Do you know one of my favorite things about this hike. No kids...No pregnant women. I think I have finally found a place where I can go to get away and I mean really get away. I found such peace emotionally, spiritually and physically being out in this beautiful state that I live in enjoying my wonderful husband and everything that my eyes can take in.
Pace and I decided that this would be our Easter tradition...balloons and all. Whether we end up ever having children or not, this will be our day to celebrate our angel baby and no one can take that from us!


Bec said...

It looks like you had an amazing Easter hon, really refreshing for the both of you. A wonderful tradition for you guys to carry on :) I pray that in years to come you will be able to children along also xxx

Misty said...

what a great way to spend this special day together. This day will always have meaning to you and I think it's awesome that you guys found such a special way of celebrating it!

Just a Girl in Love w/ a Soldier said...

What a GREAT Tradition to start, and when you do have your lil. ones with you, you will be able to explain to them what you went through and the reason you do it and then they will to be able to remember their brother / sister. Sounds like you had a great time on your first hike together, there are many fun places to hike here in Hawaii, we will forsure take you on one or two when you come to visit. love you babe, and i'm glad you had a blessed Easte!!

Fashionably Infertile said...

I have been away so I was not able to comment on your previous posts. I am sorry you went through all you went through. It is such a fine line with friends and family. I am glad though that things seemed to have worked out. Your Easter tradition is beautiful. I loved the pictures.

Hillary said...

Looks like it was a beautiful day and you created a beautiful memory and tradition!